Week September 22 – September 28
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How far along am I?
How big is the baby?
The size of a grain of rice.
How much weight have I gained?
How am I sleeping?
Sleeping is still about the same. I have to get up to go to the bathroom once or twice around the same times each night.
My best moment this week
Getting an ultrasound for the first time was pretty cool, but I didn’t get the news I expected. I should have been 6 weeks and 2 days, but the sac was measuring around 5 weeks instead. The ultrasound tech was expecting to see a fetal pole and a heartbeat, but only saw a gestational sac and a yolk sac. The midwife said that I could be just earlier than I think or I could miscarry. Definitely not news I wanted to hear. They drew my blood to check my HCG levels to make sure they were going up and if they were going up then I should be fine and should just be earlier than I thought. I went back Friday to get my blood redrawn again and to get my results. My numbers went up, but didn’t quite double. Wednesday the levels were 18903 and Friday they were 35917. I had to see a doc because my midwife was out of the office. He came off as cold…he just got straight to the point. The doc said with numbers that high, we should be able to see a heartbeat and based on the numbers and the ultrasound he was 99.9 percent sure I will miscarry. We are devastated. I cried in the office. The doc just handed me a box of tissue…didn’t say sorry or give me any kind of hope. I still have pregnancy symptoms and I’ve had no more spotting at all. I don’t know what to think. He says I have a blighted ovum. I did some research and read that this can be misdiagnosed so I hope that he is so wrong. God has the final say so, so I will put it in his hands.
Do I miss anything?
I miss not being stressed and always worrying. I worry that I’m going to miscarry, but I’m trying to be hopeful. At the same time I don’t want to be so hopeful that I am in denial about miscarrying. I also don’t want to think I’m going to miscarry and I’m not and I keep stressing and end up doing harm to the baby. This is so hard.
Nothing really yet.
What am I eating?
This week I have ate spaghetti, fried rice and chicken, pasta and broccoli, rice and broccoli, rice, green beans, and potatoes, slim jims, peaches, oranges, and yogurt.
How do I feel?
I still feel nauseous. It seems to be getting stronger to the point I feel like I’m really going to throw up, but I haven’t yet. I also feel so lost and confused because I don’t know what’s happening since I’ve been told I will miscarry. I’m a part of two Facebook groups that are private that are also due in May and they are all very supportive. They have told me not to give up hope as docs just don’t always know what they are talking about. Some pregnancies are not by the book and everyone is not the same. I hope this is the case for me. My friends and fam that do know have been very supportive as well. Everyone has us in their prayers. I hope everything works out for the best because I feel like I have had the life sucked out of me. I feel like I’m beginning to get depressed.
Have I started to show yet:
I think it’s just bloat 🙂
Am I happy or moody most of the time?
Right now I’m extremely moody because I have no idea what’s going to happen with this pregnancy. I’m very scared.
What am I looking forward to?
I’m looking forward to another ultrasound next week or the week after and the ultrasound proving the doctor wrong and I see my beautiful baby.