My Mother’s Day is coming to a close and I’ve really enjoyed my day. This is my first official Mother’s Day with my daughter being right by my side instead of carrying her around during pregnancy. I’ve loved every second of it! YES…every…single…second! Being a mom isn’t easy because there are definitely times where you don’t know just what to do and things seem quite difficult, but it is all worth it. All of the late nights, the sickness, and temper tantrums…I wouldn’t trade for anything. My baby girl is my whole world and she has shown me a different type of love that I have never experienced before.
I’ve never felt a love like this. Before I even saw her face…I loved her. Before I even heard her heart beat for the first time…I loved her. Before I even held her little hand…I loved her. Before I ever looked in her big bright eyes…I loved her. Before I ever heard her utter a sound…I loved her. When she was only a little speck on my ultrasound…I loved her. When I saw her face for the first time, she took my breath away. I was in such awe that I created a little human that I love more than anything in the entire universe.
I was so hurt that I could possibly lose someone that I hadn’t even met yet. When the doctor told me that she wouldn’t be here with me much longer at about 5 weeks pregnant, my whole world came crashing down. Before I even knew she was my little girl…my mini me…I cared for her more than I cared for myself. I prayed. I prayed hard. My husband prayed even harder. The doctor was wrong…100% WRONG.
I was in such a dark place when I didn’t know if she’d be here with me, but that didn’t last long. Weeping may endure for a night, but JOY comes in the morning. I’ve always loved this bible verse and it came to mind several times when everything seemed to be going wrong in the very beginning of my pregnancy. That’s how I came up with the name Joia. She brings me so much joy and I am so thankful for her. When Jesus says yes NOBODY can say no! I am so glad that he gave my little girl to me. He gave me the most amazing gift ever…being a mother.
Every time my baby girl does any little thing or something major my heart is filled with joy because she wasn’t supposed to be here according to a doctor. Every milestone she hits is that much more special to me. Every time she gives me that beautiful smile my heart melts. Every time she gives me the most loving kisses and hugs I feel amazing. My angel.
I absolutely love being her mom.
Happy Mother’s Day to all of the amazing moms out there!